“I can’t go back to yesterday because I was a different person then. ”

I am of the opinion that when people say there is nothing about their lives they would change, they are either lying or completely deluded. There are moments in my past where I can look back and see the fork in the path and I know, if I had it to do all over again, I would take the other path. Would it improve my life? Maybe. Maybe not. But I think there are always going to be decisions we regret. I believe that, to some extent, we are shaped by the regrets more than the successes. I know what I don’t want from my life and therefore my regrets guide my path. It seems, with the new year approaching, that the time is ripe to talk about change. It’s on everyone’s mind. What will this year bring? What has changed since last year? Am I happier? Will I be happier? What are my goals? What are my dreams? In essence, what will change?

I’m personally rooting for a big change this year. I’m ready to stop waiting for my life to start, when the reality is, this is it. This is where I am and what I am doing. Do I like everything about it? Not really. But this month is better than last, so perhaps I’m moving back in the right direction.

I don’t really believe in New Year’s resolutions. I think calling any resolution such is pretty much the kiss of death. But, it’s a good time to reflect on what I’m working toward. Because by this time next year, pretty much everything could have changed all over again.

It has dawned on me that this time next year, I’ll be someone’s wife. That’s incredibly daunting. It pretty much cements this whole growing up thing. I might also be a law student. Kinda cool. We could live somewhere completely different. Heck, we could have decided it’s time to procreate. I’m hoping this year will let me keep doing what I love, because it’s been so good for me. This coming year is going to be a big year.

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